独有音乐陪伴

随着音乐的心情摆动

发现音乐的奇迹可以搭救一切错误

沉迷，音乐原来是可以是一种堕入

堕入音乐，远远好过堕入吸烟，毒品? 

应为心力痛苦无力的呐喊，只有自己能听到

而它只会带来更多的痛苦，增倍。

白天与快乐， 又有谁知道晚上都在和自己偷偷的哭泣。

内心的哭泣，大男人就是不哭

只把痛苦埋在心里

现代的人都带着能成功一切，

语言，知识，钱财

而。。。。

我在夜里哭泣被遗弃的自信。

再也找不到的。。。

economic paper was quite easy after alll.. ==llll

kena prank by teacher gao gao

today morning i saw her hiding behind a tiang.. =.= i know that because normal people wont stand at that place... it is not even a walking path... raining make it muddy...

what is the point then?

she saw this? lol

my friend say if sembreak come u stand no chance...but seriously what can i do? im de 'rejected people...

set my target too high and fall on 80% on the path..

and now i feel very not well inside my heart.

>.< close enough... XD goodluck for my holiday... 

final 要到了。。。功课还是不会

==

我死了。。。

今天就。。睡。。。然后。。。吃。。。然后。。。读书。。。

闷。。。

煮了意大利面== 难吃到。。。。

算了。。。 本来还打算。。。算了。。。讲不出

8点多想读书时，头突然很晕就去睡了。。。

在朋友家睡，睡睡下。。。ZiShan 走进来问我有没有事。。

>.< 给她吓到半条命。。。

跟她说我没事后。。。 过后还有来多一次。

我会吓到，应为我没有想到是她会进来。

=） 其实还蛮开心的。。。

幼稚下，她会担心我哦。。。自爽。。。lol

过后我们就去吃东西打pool...

不会打所以打到很好笑。。。

死JY 叫她去还要死不死。。什么要去大便，要上厕所。。。要看porn的。。。

色女==

haiz...

好在最后她有去了。。。 不然我这辈子不会原谅她的。。。=D

presenting not doing well...

fucked up... i prepared well...and helped my group member...the only thing left is prepare myself... ShiX

but then after install, my wifi cant use...and show ODIN error when trying to send something...

i know there is something wrong with the ODIN file but i dono where to find a correct one...

and im not a programmer..T_T

my phone rang cos someone call me and she saw it...

she EMO and start to avoid me...

the second time it does

I told her ignore that, the "phone people" 失恋 come kacau me..

she back to normal and talk to me again...

is she 吃醋-ing? =)

good thing for me as i dont lose anything

btw the phone people....

人变美了。。。

身材也变好了。。。

好到我晚上梦到还流鼻血。。。

=( who should i pickup on?

A/B ?

lazy to study lor...

wapiang...but must study...

I cannot waste money...

today is the math's test...i dint know how to do anything..

then...after class rush math from 3pm to 7.00pm..

exam at 7.00pm..

okay la... better then last time..only get 8/40...fuuuuu==

this time total 45% == hope i get better mark...

living here is like..Infinity exam....fucking tiring...

I feel abit stressed as people around me also start to nervous about their study ed...diu...

i hate it..LOL...

I tot i was someone that wont stress nervous or what.... == aiya....iisshhh...

at the end the papar was okay la...not so tough.

I told my friend about my pass... who i like...that this that...

A pretty cute girl teached me what is a heart-breaking feeling.

the first time i had that kind of feeling...

i tot i was sick...

i was moody

i dont want to talk to anyone

i dint play any games for that night

i din reply msg.

and it feel so worst

i hate the feeling...on that time

I keep on having that kind of feeling after that

frequently.

until i gave up totally

that is...after 2 years

i hang out with frien

do other thing so i dint think about her again

perhaps that is the only way for everyone

not so success...but at least it worked abit

Almost forgot the feeling for some month that i working

it is real that u will forgot who are you when u work too hard

that you forgot your original life style

what u will remember is...your work

准备一个星期多也是没有用。。

haiz

最近跟了一班朋友。。。话题是有，但是他们都是广东话的，

我华语还是有一点点bugam channel...=X

还有一个女生不错可爱。。。蛮好谈的。。。

但是。。。现在。。。已经没有那种意思了。。

我成功了T—T

（完蛋了）

"前女友" sms kacau...

"告白过那个" facebook有找我。。。

但是我还是觉得很。。。寂寞没人要

其实不管是谁也会怕寂寞吧？

还是有那种。。。失落感，很想自己一个人慢慢走。。。

享受那种节奏，

但是事实告诉我，一个人是办不到大事的。

相信朋友，才会活得更实际。

交际是很重要的。。。

虚拟世界还是隔着一片XXXX （想不到形容词）

我看到一个“她” 不什么特别拉，

之前是同学 很斯文，很静。。。现在每天看到她自己一个人独来独往。。。很像很惨浆哦

但是由于是女生，我已经发誓尽量不去。。做到好像要追某人某人的事情。。。

ini sumpah saya...

exam coming soon again

alot of work to do...that is all for today...=D goodluck..

david will never fail college exam..."midterm fuck u"

leh... Lol i hiao again haha

=.=

diu... going to study soon..

15th went up 16th school open..

UTAR kampar, perak....here i come

nervous state....

Soli to someone for ignoring u...cos i m sure that this is not the time for me to chat at phone till late night...

wait my life became stable abit dulu...

+ the dono what name special book say i this year 桃花会影响学业。。。

should focus study and ignore any pretty girl come 献身 XD
im not hamsap....XD

just now my new iphone4s macam got problem....shock dao me la....T_T

3 days ago i chat with facebook 红人。。。xiiao aii aii ( lim sun huei) ？ i think....her name...

she gave me her special signature....T_T OMG so gamdong....LOL i very hiao...

as a guy, hiao...=.= i m too... haiz...nothing to say myself...

aiyo who dosent like when got pretty girl to talk to u?

IT IS BEST!...oK? news paper say a male will have longer life span if interact with pretty girl

she talk to me at talkbox and say she cant sleep cos drink too much nescafe...

and sommore spam me...==

but then after that day no more chat....

haiz...i not lengzai enough...

guess i should follow what that dumb book tell me...

focus study...

LOL== i got some weird thinking in my brain...

am i nuts?

i want to chase famous girl.....HAHAHA

=.= oh please...

super nice plan wei~

1st photo is no yet at facebook de...

2nd photo is with name on it....

BEST present before going to study ...==

that is all la....

the 1st 2 day i been sleeping in home...

i think i sleep for more then 19 hours on the 1st day and second day...

1st time of my life that i sleep so much on one day

don't know if it is a good thing or bad thing

doctor tell me that if keep on fever i should go back for him to check if i kena denggi...

i don't want to because it need some blood test

luckily i din get either...

i din get rest well?
feel like whole world is spining....

am i going to dead?

lol i even think like this...

thinking like that is not good

luckily im able to walk normaly on 29th, my 18th birthday...

thank god...

but i still spining like drunk...

then..i go drink wine....

drunk + drunk = drunked

==

but i stil can drive pro me

my father said want to buy iphone4s for me

ya i m happy, even he jus say say only...

still feel great...

anyway...i wanna buy myself

i din managed to invite her come this year...FAIL

bad...

alot of friends came...

so long din meet them all...

=.= damn miss each of them...

maybe this is betul betul last chance ed...

last time i got say this...

this time is betul betul ed...no change..XD

ai, i wan my iphone more...

this year i drink 2 cup of red wine...== so hard to drink...

no tasty at all.. taste sucks...

and i think im abit drunk...

i go sms elaine

and ask her why she reject me last time...=.=

and then...we... play tetris battle LOL

ya....facebook famous game lately...many people playing so i playing too...

swt la me..

then i think she continue ignore me again

i told her that the she from every morning last time is lessbian...

the she last time at facebook i dont know her

and now this she is not real one..just helping her keep from someone...

that is why....

i just want to tell her

since...i got nothing better to do..XD

what shit reason i give myself...==

watever la

pass ed

thank to those wine my friend give....

taste suck...that burn my heart and lung...==

一天莫名其妙的失落感

今天终于把我的x8卖掉了。。。哈哈

RM350。。。赚回

之前买。。。好像RM230+20记忆卡+7贝壳+5screen protector...

RM350-RM262 = RM88 untung....HOHO...

改了它的firmware to 2.2.9 froyo...hackdriod...

not bad la...可以把游戏放进记忆卡。。。

家里那只可怜的hamster....几可爱一下。。。

很害羞。。。 但是很好玩。。哈哈。。。

今天把那个小女孩约出来一起吃晚餐了。。

就无聊。。。叫多一点人出来吃。。。。哈哈

突然的失落感。。。

不懂为了什么。。。失恋？== 那个开玩笑的咯。。。

最后一次是那时在追她的时候。。。天天都有这种感觉。。。长达一年多。。。现在又来了。。==haiz...我不要。。。。

=_= no gf still will 失恋。。。 我好厉害~

mood is half hyper today

i considering to sell my X8...

erm... mind map like this...

1. ok la sell it... get money

2. then i no game play

3. buy iphone4 lor...

4. will waste alot money parent wont allow

5. forget it =3 keep it.. but later X8 value will drop then i will rugi....

6. back to number 1

XD swt la me...hohoho

Christmas is coming soon...

dono why this year i no xin fen d...== i no love Christmas jor...

bored gua... WHATS WRONG WITH ME ME ME??? omg

chhh....watever la

today saw very epic thing...

a couple or i dont know what relationship they are in...

come here...then wanna buy something

then i saw red dot on his face...

i tot is something like tai ji

double check it..

yiii? got lips shape de..

then i look at the girl...wah....lipstick liao o... colour also match...

then only know...HAHAH

they 偷吃没有抹嘴。。。。哈哈

laugh die me.... T_T

then my partner still hao xin go ti xing them...

"kawan... you sini lap sikit..."

i at side laugh until wan to cry ed...LOL

hahahaha

then the guy face like...red ed...his gf... help him wipe away.... LOL

=.= i wan laugh loudly but i scare they angry so i jus smiling... but super hard to tahan...

XD walao very stupid la them

today shi wei ask me to zhao gu her hamster...

so i..became nai ba ed...

new pet here...

== welcome~ tatatata~

haha

he is going to study oversea...

so, i skiped my job half day to attend the party..

located at windmill....

5.40 i go fetch siensiang from JJ... he working at sushi restoran now... sushi boy...lol

then we all went to eric's house...

and rush to windmill there...

1st! XD nobody there...lol

=_= too exited i think...

so long time din see them...

so touched lar....lol

party was fun...free food...

he going oversea for 3 years...

hope he din forget his jaylyn at there..

or i will punch him in 3, one on face, one on stomach one on his gugu...=D

but i trust him la..haha...

they say wan to go overtime drink something after party...

nearly at 12.00am

it was raining outside... i park my car at eric's house and went there with cshan's car

on the way...

suddently they start to drive so fast....walao... Tokyo drift meh...

原来 ivan perut sakit...lol==

so dangerous lor...

siao de... =.=

order orange juice only...

haha... i dont want to ki xiao..i still need to drive home....

1.30am i back home...

xiao xiao de day.... i m damn tired...

beer is not nice.... 一口想要吐。。。==

突然遇到以前小时候每天一起玩耍的邻家女孩

shiwei... =D

还是一样小小只。。。哈哈

然后我才知道哪个第四档的哪个小女孩

其实她不小了。。。只是身材长得比较小只

所以就叫他小只咯

其实他们是认识的哦

他们两只都是读pinhwa private 的

大概就是认识但是不熟的吧

哈哈哈。。。

我很闷。。。

我不想做了。。

这里很。。。麻烦。。。

不读书不可以。。。

我要去读书了。。。

now my commision KO ed...i no eye see ed...

luckily i repair de phone got money get..

benben is ok...everyday sleep at home..like nothing happen...

he dosent know he nearly went to end ed...

=.= everyday still sleep like pig...

mom say because of the medicine...

so i forgive u =D

no bicycle ed...so dad fetch me everyday...

=.=

daddy told me that mom saw my bicycle on the road..been paint to white colour...LOL?

swt

watever la rubbish thing give u..dwn ed

fuck u

lately everyday phone calling to amanda..

wondering why i so...i dont know how to explain the feeling..

just...dont feel like me...

will feel sorry if i do wrong thing... ha~..... tak tau la... it is free anyway...XD

family ask me to study soon..

maybe this 15 of dec is my last day working...

feel so sorry for my boss... partner...friends...

and

nervous for everything...

i no prepare for even a single shit..OMFG ed...zzzz

lazy...

am i going to study business?

my parents are telling me not to study software...cos i not suitable..

they ask me...WHAT U WANT TO STUDY? and....say...NO u GO study BUSINESS...

AND WHY THE FUCK U STILL ASK ME EVERYTIME I M FREE AND FEEL LIKE CHATTING WITH MY FRIENDS? OR GET A SIMPLE REST?

zzzz

p/s stressed so fuck fuck 声

one is older then me few month i call him ah hong...

another one is at form 3 i call him dai lou....cos i dono what is his name..LOL

watever la

lately i eat with them so i dint back home eat already...

today very fucking suey...

my bicycle kena steal..

i locked it with a lock...and when after work i wan to went back...

i found my bicycle gone...LOL!??

=.= left the spoiled lock there..

WTF why steal my bicycle...haiz...

结果被一个车撞倒了

看起来没事

但是我知道

这次完蛋了

妈带它去看医生

我没办法必须去上班

回到家，眼神还是跟往常一样

摇摇尾巴欢迎我回来

但是看的出它其实很痛苦

妈讲撞到后半部

大概撞到肾脏了

大概坐不下来了

命令它坐下来他也不坐

虽然是在疼，也不发脾气

还一直尝试着想要乖

听从我的命令想要坐下来

医生说看它情况才作决定

隔天。。

看见他连走都走不动了

就一直傻傻站着

大概整晚都没有睡吧

下午回家，弟弟哭着说 benben 要动手术。。。 RM2k

不然就活不过明天了

心里一时真的会抽一下

不像要听到的最后还是听到了

我打电话叫妈妈那我的储蓄去救它

钱是买不到生命的

可能我太傻太笨

但是我愿意

因为我知道我不这样做我是会后悔的

它给我带来的欢乐

孤单时给我的陪伴

最真诚，忠心的陪伴

难道还会不值得我那一点点的付出？

我是愿意的

拿出我三个月的薪水我也要救它

我真的，还想要看见它活泼的样子。。。就多那几年吧

想着想着。。。煮面来吃时还不小心哭了出来

男子汉不因该为这种事哭吧

我结果还是哭了。。。一次在煮面

还有一次就是刚刚

晚上冲着冰水澡。。。眼泪格外的热

不是因为失恋

不是因为生意

就是应为那种友情

超过语言，生命和生命之间的友情

没办法，我本身自己也不擅长口头上的谈话

所以只有它才能让我感到安慰

我能做到的都已经做到了

身为一个主人的本份

接下来也就只能看它自己了

希望它没事

左边那只他的同伴乐乐．．．虽然每次吵架打架抢位子睡抢食物。。。但是同伴不见了她还是会很伤心不吃饭的

i let my partner sms with them both...HAHHAHA

let them sms with 怪叔叔。。。。哈哈哈

i m so evil =)

ok back to todays story...

today amanda ask me to watch “那些年，我们一起追的女孩”

i already wanted to watch that thing very very long time ago...

since i already rest for this week...

i >.< wish for another day in this week...it is nearly imposible for me to leave i think..for those silly reason..

i tell them..私人原因。。。

WTF is this company... why is them even like to bother my private stuff...i not taking leave...i just want to transfer my leave from next week to this week...

what so wrong with the boss...i hate here...i leaving now...fuck them =.=

missing phone huh? whatever...it continue going i m going to get crazy...whatever now cos i leaving....maybe this month... or next month...i wanna go study and get a better earning then this shit... no use...

i beg them and get a no...

so i tell them fine i stoping this month...

=.= i really get upset...WHO CARE?? so i decide to leave...

p.s = not showing off or what... cos i dont care about the money...

...

...

...

thus... 1st round pass...

i back home and face another challenge...

i check my phone balance...wao...=.=

nvm...not a problem...haha

i back to home... ask car from mom...

get know my brother going to school...time is 12.00 to 2pm==

oh shit..so i ask him to back home before 12... better for me so i can watch 1.40 de...and fetch mom at 5pm...

next one...

i meet thuan song at school traning them...

i was late abit cos waiting them...while ask thuan song how to go aeon bukit tinggi...=.=

sorry i m a newbie so i m sucks at road... 我是典型的路痴==

i went to eng ann and fetch her...

=.= her mom show up...i was...like... oh my froggy god...

get shocked until i dont know what to do.. and now i know the feeling...yey...

i get everyone will meet something like this and mine version is like this...

i feel so useless because i done nothing but sitting inside the car...

she follow her mom's car later on and i ask thuan song to go with me...

i nearly give up...but...

fuuuuu

who will give up so easily...i also will get fucked up bu boss later on...

so...whatever..=D

3rd 1...driving challenge... wahahaha... i m someone so insane that dint plan before moving out...=.=

but i made it there lar...

just cant found them...== i think she is sad because of her mom...

I dont know what to do and just keep calling her...=.=

kena scold..aiyo...

=< 1st time let people scold beside my sister and teacher...and mom of cos...

=____=

finally i call mom say i will late for her and she ask dad to fetch her...yes... guannima i love u...

we went 3.40's so it is easier...

cinema was so cold inside....

yesterday i break a record of drinking 1Litter milk in 12 hours...

shit i hate the smell of milks.. sucks...

so today i change to soya...

=.= same la

too sweet...

but 1 litter also...

i finished it alone..

MYTH BUSTED....XD HAHAHAHA

she really like ultraman== super ultraman fans i guess...

swt...

ask me to help her download ultraman max and ultraman what what op themes song==

oh shit i m watching ultraman after 13 years i dint watch or heard about it...

she ask me to call her just now...

i tried but =.= i kok ji la~ lol...

=3 sorry~

maybe i should went back sleep at home...lol

inside me...

actually it was...

fracture inside my heart...

deeply...

The Problem is....you like it...

she came to pay another Rm100 that she forgot last day...

in school uniform...

so we have some chating on phone sms...

我发现原来我只有在和女生单独时会口吃==

shit...

够力。。。我没有蛋蛋？~T—T

im sick today morning...i feel so abnormal....

i keep saw my friend that is not my friend...LOL

im sick...

i take half day rest better...

i sell 2 galaxy ace to mark loo...

he got a sister... form 5 this year, study at BK...

she said it was her 1st phone....

have a normal chat like i did everytimes...

she seem like want me to have her number so badly...

hahaha..i not dare to say im too attractive la== cos im not...

but it is true...

im someone who dosent dare to ask a phone number from a girl...

my way is steal it from her phone...

hack, facebook... and from friends...

=.=

she dont have number... well...she still say she will give me her number later on...

and ask for my number...

=D lucky day...

not very pretty...but okok...XD

cute...

duh...im sick keep on KFC tisu-ing..

i think i m going to finish their stock...

tisu...not chicken...HAHA

that day sucks...

i pressed shift beside ctrl to open new tab== keep open a new window already....i dont know why....

click 10 times got 8 times click wrong...

google search something, type wrong...

wipe all...

then type the wrong thing again...LOL

I saw her picture with another guy...

as always...

feeling like heart attack...

funny thing la love...

am i going to be like this after few year?

who know?

already been 2 years...

normal or abnormal?

1 month passed like 1 years now...

what im doing for the pass few month feel like nothing now...

白活了。。。

i lost a samsung phone while selling other model i guess...someone stole it from me...

fuck..so i have to pay for it...RM500 below...cut off half of my income? =.=

then my bicycle spoiled, so i walk back home alone during midnight...

with bicycle 'walk' beside me==

god damn myself... i have to find a way now...

will do anything cos fuck u demon u wont win me...

u wan me die, unless u bang me with car...or i wont lose to badluck...

night!

remembered last time i rush everywhere before my SPM exam just to find o gui for her...

whole mind only her....

I will do everything for her...

silly thing because i dont think she know that...

i bought two o gui for her...one male one female...

one death after 1 week =___=

and left last one...

i feel not good for this seriously...

because my friend told me

U must have something meaningful for both of u only....

so i pick this little tortoise... i named it by her name...lol

so sad that thing dead...

she told me today...

sad case...

last hope...now it is gone...

this week is super sucks for me...

i feel like badluck demon is right beside me everyday...

Im love sick again...

i dream her again and again now... almost everynight...

i think i m insane== fuck who ever read this blog...LOL==

life goes on even u fall down...

the time wont wait...

=D good to heard that news...

it means i still got chance...=.=

(get a life please ~) for myself...

long day today... morning abit bored till death...

jus now when selling my last phone...

*i busy working*

a little 13 years old girl cum disturbing

she = "brother why u so slim"

me = because i dont like to be fat... =.= 'ignoring because i everyone like to ask this to me... already used to it'

she =* laugh so bad* hahaha zadao lor...borrow your hand phone...

me = *handover* dun unlock it

she = * got games? already touching apps inside

me = =.= ya, pro only...(i jus say dont touch right?)

she = why u keep 嘟嘴？　so cute <3

me = mouth pain...

she = can i take a picture of u?

me = for what? == i self know how to take...

she = i use your phone then?

me =LOL == ignore... n when other way...

she = *looking at me like found new species*

quite cute girl actually jus too much word...

i m so success...XD

at least it was once in my life...LOL

=.= fucking boring i dno what to type here

怎么可以。。。

所以我决定下次的中秋我要。。。

就是这样。。。特大号灯笼在后面。。。

走街~哈哈哈哈。。。。

一男一女。。。

一个Namewee。。。nasilemak 2.0 XD / 五毒散

一个韩晓暧，人称可爱，唱歌跳舞运动样样行？ 不是很懂。。。

有个人对我说，有他们一半就好。。。

想了下。。。

干吗拿那些人做榜样？ 做自己不好？

每个人一样一样，很有趣？不会闷？

人有笨有丑，有精有美的， 人生才精彩嘛，

每个人出世就完美到你死的时候。。。

我想在死之前还会叹口气。。。

心想，walan...闷到死的一生。。。

有缺陷才有挑战性。。。

每个人不一样才对，上帝就是要这样的世界

不完美的完美。。。

曾经我白痴似的想过一个很无聊但是找不到答案的问题。。。

一个很简单每天都有人想过的问题，

偏偏我用了大半个月还找不到答案。。。

就是那种一个人什么话都不说，心事重重的样子。。。

自闭，放学后坐在学校凳子上。。。

（很梦幻）=.=

人，活着，应该要干吗？到底为什么？

应该每个人都给不同的答案吧。。。

我的答案是，做自己。。。看世界的每一个奇妙东西。。。

在学校看的东西太小太小，

出来做工后。。。

其实也不大。。。

真正的世界有多大？

应该没多少人懂吧。。。

有的朋友为钱做工，为爱情牺牲，

（本人还自己遭殃，被骂？就为个钱字。。。）

还有一段路都是要自己走，
给那些失恋的，希望我写的能给点什么收获。。。。

给那些读书的，加油，以后还有得受啦。。。哈哈。。。读书不是最苦的。。只是苦在不同地方

宅家里的，出门咯。。。电脑不是一切==

( 千万不要给小孩迷上电脑）

然后给自己，去死算了==写这种东西干吗？够力废，

考虑把这里封起来自己欣赏。。。

考虑中。。。

P/s = 不写不愉快的东西，我的工作是自定的魔鬼训练，

有多少人RM900 ，第一份工每天打12 小时的？

这样就不跟人家一样了吧。。。哇哈哈哈哈

because today i solo at my stall

no people beside me help/teach/to be asked...

so...at the end quite deathly result

i long time no see...

she say she will come meet me at carfour if she got come here...

i take it as joke... not dare to put any hope...lol

=_=

gang jiong....

about at 9.30...

suddenly got weird feeling...so i point my head around....=.= i also dno why i do that...

i saw familiar face...(im short sighted de, i agak agak only)

=.= wth? my eye got problem? i saw her brother...

and i saw her at counter paying money...

where is her family?

zzz LOL her brother fetch her here?

That fucker block me at facebook if no wrong...

next response is...=.= wtf i look like shit now because i late wake up today morning and i din even comb my hair... T_T

suak la...=.= twice d...

two time meet with her also with spoiled look==

messy dumb mushroom hair and cin cai shirt+ kena water colour de pants...lol

很堕落。。。＝＝

she came to say hi to me... =.= i nervous sai a? walao i m girl...T_T

my bird is dead at that moment...

=.= i cant went away cos today my partner not here...i cant go out myself== boss behind me oh hell...zzz

touched her hand when i try to took the money on her hand...

now i understand they say shock...不要笑我差＝＝

her resit all buy rubbish de... 特地来的？

想太多。。。

被叫醒的。。。

不然我应该睡到下午吧

难得没做工咯

才像起来，再不起来就没东西吃了。。。

就跑下去吃bufet lor...

里面有一两个美眉。。。但是我现在没兴趣。。。

食物重要。。。我在思考着。。。

。。

。。。

。。。。

。。。。。

该吃午餐了？还是早餐？

然后就决定拿炒饭好了。。。等下才想。。。不想浪费时间。。。

加两粒鸡蛋。。。还有橙汁。。。哈哈。。。

吃完了。。。

才想起。。。哎呀。。。应该先吃早餐的。。。

没办法了，就去拿面包加红茶吃过。。。

午餐〉早餐〉晚餐part1 + part 2==

今天的进食记录是这样的

虽然是很不舍得那两个美女，但是我还是忍着痛苦走了。。。

去沙滩玩咯。。。

玩水，最后还是没cao da....geng!...

买了点东西给我老板，同事，朋友，妈妈 ==

然后忘记自己的。。。。算了。。。改天等人家送。。。

去了很多地方＝＝我是用来乱跳的。。。（结果两条腿差点散掉）

有神庙，我去求桃花哈哈哈，还有平安。。。

有个许愿池。。。我拿了３个硬币。。。然后乱丢！＝＝乱丢都中一粒。。。

敲到很大声。。。其他人都丢不中勒～太厉害了我！=3=

我问它，希望给我再次机会见多你一面～一次就够。。。

很囧，脑海出现当时就是这样。。。所以就这样咯。。。

吃两顿晚餐。。。

到家。。。ＸＤ

其实懒惰排，不同地方时间拍的。。。

我是不是很艺术细胞？瓦哈哈哈哈~

给我来讲，这些算是美到要死了。。。

能和另一半来最好。。。

能的话，带个有艺术细胞点的。。。能有我一半的。。JKJK XP

最好是有DSRL的。。XD

来艺术艺术下。。。

才想起家人要出去玩。。。

我其实事先已经跟老板请假了咯。。。但是下个星期没得休息。。。囧

其实就是没有放咯。。。

家人临时决定去 pulau pangkor 玩。。。

每次都这样的啦。。。习惯了。。。即兴的。。。XD

打包下就出发。。。我忘记带牙刷==

坐车，坐到脚不见（感觉好像不见了）冷笑话＝＝

然后就坐船。。。扮酷。。。风吹到我的头发好像“上海滩”那出戏那样

丑到==怪不得没有女友。。T—T walao e... 现在明白那些以前人流行的发型从哪里来了。。。哈哈哈

吹了吹海风，然后下船了觉得很帅。。。就流行了。。。囧

到了，坐ｖａｎ跑。。。。

然后乱走咯。。。

基本上就是坐车累了。。。不想走＝＝

去海边看了看。。。就回房间睡。。。
在游泳池玩了下水。。。

然后又想睡了＝＝

满脑都是
“接下来路怎么走？＂　
“还要读书吗？”　
要不就　

“为什么我还是单身？会不会接下去做和尚？＂　
“自己在外面住需要多少生活费？”　

满脑的废物。。。

思考不停的在旋转，像暴风一样。。腐蚀着自我思考能力。。。

结果，演变成迟钝的废材。。。那就是我咯。。。

就这样过了一天。。。没什么美女看。。。闷咯。。。

４．００ａｍ．．．

可爱的电话秘书突然响起＝＝吓到我半条命丢了。。。

我不是一个人睡嘛。。。还有我姐姐和弟弟。。。

爬出房间接电话咯。。。

听到一个人在哭

我还在梦游状态

就是某某女生咯。。。

哭到很惨下。。。

第一次有女生哭着打给我。。。

＝．＝怕怕咯。。。心脏不听话。。。

更gao lat 的是。。。我打开天台走出去。。。还看到一只猪睡在天台＝＝在我隔壁罢了

囧到，只好走回进去咯。。。

我不会安慰人＝＝遗憾。。。

改天女孩哭泣了，

直接紧紧抱着她应该会胜过一大堆废话罢？反正我本来就很爱扮kool...XD

大概１０分钟就挂电话了。。。我不懂要说什么。。。就愣着咯。。。

没有理由陪她哭吧？　

嘿小姐，你还有男生给你失恋。。。

看看其他人（我）要都没有哦。。。要自足。。。

要不然下次吧你追去＝＝

本人每天到处老婆老婆叫但都不是男女友关系的咯，

反正她们愿意陪玩．．．ｈａｈａ

我又刚好单生。。。改天有了个宝贝就不好乱叫了。。。

程现在玩个够吧。。。

好歹以后可以对其他人炫耀。。。哈哈。。。想当年。。。ＸＤ

其实有点想念一个人了。。。

所以最近都很纳闷。。。

想念但是就见不到面咯。。。

就会开始乱乱叫人老婆＝＝

很够力咯我。。。

该反省反省。。。面壁思过。。。哈哈

写太多。。。回到故事。。。
过后挂电话倒回去睡。。。

完， 哈哈

还有明天==不要一巴给我先

但是跟太阳公公比起来。。。

好多了

现在是午饭时间。。。

早上迟了点点~

所以老板打包的午餐当早餐吃掉了。。。

辣到~ T—T 还在厕所努力了一段时间。。。

才回想起昨天那个炒粿条的uncle... 不懂干吗那么不爽我。。。

加到浆辣。。。要杀人么。。=.=

刚刚店停电咯。。。

闷掉~ 暗暗浆，怎样卖东西？

又下雨。。。 拍鬼片？

最近没什么生意。。。就，拿电话来玩咯。。。乱乱sms打电话。。。

我觉得我真的很白痴。。。

真的是人闷起来就乱乱来了。。。

还是只是我而已? >.<

im really tired...

feel no more energy to even think other then that...

finger tired...dwn type d

Feel the pain even just thinking of it...

dumb bicycle la... my bicycle but, others kena their private part when riding on it...XD myself haven kena yet...=D pro?

so, i will...cycle slow slow slow until i fix it up... lol

but i got no time...too bad

lately the sales is not good...

=.= maybe i not professional enough....haha

i hate when my parents keep "teaching" me their fucking "Law"

I SAID! i understand.... ok? dun keep repeating the same thing....

MOM said it before...Or dad say it before...so dun keep repeat...

It may be the 1st time u told me that but, it is the N-time people told me d.... frog that...
i know i m new...cant u all just let me figure out something by myself? i love to let people screw me some couple time to learn something...

this is my life not yours!

Or why dun jus kill me before i was born out? that is alot easier if i made so much trouble to u?

fuck... Wait...

the time is coming...

like i say before...

arghhh.... pening kepala...

stressed NOT because of work..

but family

why must i still LEARN without resting in home... WHOLE LIFE stressed life? can i relax at home?

how dare u all say me ACTION By JUS DOING THAT KIND OF little thing...CCB!

10am to 10pm...u tot i go play? people will get tired ok?

niama...zzz

听到就火滚...

u two also will argue and fight even jus facing each other...

and now I have to face both of u...

X2 ok?

that is all la...lazy... the more i type the more i dulan

a someone... she teach me what is miss...

a someone.... she teach me how to fall in love...

where is the someone that should be teaching me how to LOVE?

jailbreak is finished...T_T

buy new shoe but the dog spoil it..

that all...night...tired

because i think i spoil something...

actually it was't really me...

and i CAN ask other fix for me... but will waste their "a little bit time"

so i, erm... try to solve myself

i accidenly spoil a iphone 3g which is jailbroken.... i pressed reset...

when i do so...i ask the guy sitting beside me...

i trying to delete all media... then he say...RESET la...

i summore confirm...can? this is jailbroken version..

then... fuck la...fuck my own finger

at the end the phone was stuck at Apple logo

CUT down it wont help anyway....so i keep it

and so the night i start my research on Iphone jailbreaking...restore...i used whole 4 hrs to learn every weird word...zzz

then thx god got help frm adwin ying...

he so pro la...everytime ask from his help.... bu hai yi shi...lol next time belanja makan...

I think my IQ only at 80 like that..so i think very slow and remember very slow...

+ something is disturbing me from thinking...+ my parent like to kepo wat i doing...HOW I EXPLAIN WHOLE THING TO THEM?==

sleep at 3am cant taham...morning continue..

stuck...i fail again..

so next day i return it....

my partner give me one day more...

this lately people was less then before....

i dno why...

1st event so funny today is two bangadish so pro play magic trick and trying to steal RM10 from us...

i pay RM10 for reload..another pay RM50 for 10point de..

so..we have to return RM40 to him

then.. my partner give the RM10 from his friend to the second guy...

then take another RM30 for the second guy...

but...the second guy then start to argue.... Oi...RM10 more?

"he passed the money to his friend...."

then start arguing

sumore wan buka baju let us check...zzz

then my partner ask the friend open shirt let us check also...then only they run..zzz

before that... got a hiao po cum kacau d...

super hiao== but ugly... and old...and... she got bad breath...shit== i can smell it...GOSH...

she smoke... couple with OLD uncle for money...zzz

open minded... gamer... maybe she sell her body too i dno? cum to talk then buying thing...and talk so loud for what?== xia sui me...zzz

so i go for a long toilet time.... let them think i 大号吧==

that is all... boss got back at afternoon...

someone cum ask for galaxi tab... == i dno...i know the price about RM1500 but scare wrong...so i keep quiet...

then...he after that.... i say i dno how to tell that... cannot make phone call hor?== cos i remember Lun say cannot...

then only boss say can... the cannot make phone call de din sell ed...

zzz then scold me dno then dun geh gao....zzz

wtf is the meaning?== i geh gao? i learning ok? u do 10 years d... i just start out...and i have to know everything Jus because u can do it?

ok i know im stupid...BUT my pay is only RM700 and i dno if that 10% commision counted or not?zzzz

fuck.... those people who din study can be know so easy....

我很很很。。。乱。。。

很少有这种，想东西想不到的感觉。。。

很乱。。。

很想，拉着你的手。。。

但，我连写都没勇气了。。。

没，就什么都没有。。。

刚刚差点饿死==

胃痛。。。 我忘记吃。。。

就这样咯。。。一天又过去了。。。

even we sold alot...but the profit is Low like sai...zzz

sad la...

boss told me to rest at thursday for i dno why...

so, today im off....

nothing to do...

yesterday dragonica until 3am

now wake up at 11.00pm...

eat three burger that i cooked myself...

tasty, but 3 is too much i guesss~ ==

差点涨死。。。

nothing to do so i will continue gaming

yesterday, the dark devil and white angel fighting inside me.... =D

the dark one say... chap it la.. tmr go play... money can earn later...chase girl is more important

the white one say... LOL~ dont waste money... keep... wtf why waste money on others... haiya... girl like that give up lar~

at the end i dno which is white which is dark one...

maybe they mixed and became gray~

shit...rubbish talk...zzz

doing so research so i can jail break iphone...==

tata~ this for today

回到家吃完午餐。。下雨让我飞脚车回去做工。。。

连弟弟的午餐都来不及弄。。。

衣服忘记收~ =D

没生意。。。

然后，蹲上蹲下闪到腰~ >_<

然后，敲到我的玉手。。。指甲暴。。。剪掉咯~

然后，今天很多美女看。。。

但是，事情是这样的。。。

一个晴朗（阴风阵阵）的下午。。。

我在工作。。。

有两个美女走过来。。。XD 不错下。。 一大一小

来买电话卡。。。

然后。。。我礼貌的笑一笑。。。

然后。。。 她竟然拉她在发呆的朋友逃走！

我有那么恐怖吗！？

AGM 11

today is the 1st time i back to kwanghwa st.john as ex-seniors...LOL

feel like....== normal la...sleepy...

fuck, once think later got work i get no energy....

because PDIC say, i laughing when he get that pos... now is the time i laughing while he turn that pos to other person...

== well.... new PDIC is her, elaine foo...

already can guess la... unlucky her...

=D summore 出糗。。。 walk wrong place and turn a circle....

shocked by me?== Did i do so much effect?

watever...i feel so crap for still doing silly things while too free

so i guess i wont let it happen.... i will fill my time with work..

let it full so i dont think others....

heart crushed again when she din reply much...

but after that she repied abit... == and i feel better..

wao...sucks lar my story...

fuck someone for viewing my phione photo...zzzz

My 1st work in my life...

i made my own decision....

i rule my own life....

"IM" different from other...

I "DID" look special then the other...

As people say...

"IM" who i am...

I will continue be myself...

for myself....

be selfish =D

I feel like something stuck inside my brain now...'

I just change my font size so i feel secure to write without people snecking what im writing...

sometime i just feel...

what is the point of being a GOOD boy? i found no point doing so...

even like that...i already doing so far...

Form 1 until my form 5....

No GF, No Smocking,No drunk, No drugs, No night outing, no clubing, no scold bad word in house, No destroying, No talking too loud, No ponteng, No abondon school work..

No nono no n Ono no nn on o no nno no no no .. fucking endless "no" loops

ok i will stop my nagging....

long story to tell...

last time i almsot type my form 1 to form 5 life summary out...

but i chick out d...== scare people saw here...wtf i will left no face

but i scare i will forget those...the feelings, things, events, that i past through before...

i know i will regret...lol

so, this time i will just telling latest story about myself....

lol.... who want to know...hahaha... i pretenting myself have alot fans so i dont feel so boring...XD

i currestly working at carefour klang... inside a phont stall full with HIGH confidence people...

people there with weird personality for me... im from different world for them...

21 years old married and with one baby now...that is my partner...

this can be count as my 1st job in life...XD memorable day....

i start working last last wednesday 3/8 < celebrate it XD tq

most of them drop from school before graduated....

complicated too much that i cant know how the hell there was so many people drop from school....

they all end up here?

salary per month about 1K +- and some need to raise their family with that money...

even until they sucess and became boss...their monthy earning also quitless from the other i think.... most they can get is 5K per month..

Highest i gave...

i learn many thing here...

and i think i change so much...

no more dragonica SDO DOTA SA...

but still facebooking...==

atleast i changed....fuck it...zzz

now working from 10am to 10pm for 700 per month...

i m so fucked...zz no time for other fucking shit as i only have off day on friday...

event that happened during work? erm... what is consider a thing that worth to write...

my point of view is little different from others...

1st, == shy about this... X-X haha

ok, i day dreaming about someone.... that day...== i miss her lar... too long din saw her..

start to miss her everyday... hoping that she will appear at carfour...

i somemore pray to god that jus one look is Ok for me...

and i also send a stupid sms that i know wont get replied... i told her i worked here

fuck that fucking god really give me a "look"

so...the dream come true== i 'watched' what i dream so much about...

one day she just suddenly pop out front of my sight...==

say "hi" then run away== gone

then i started to busy again...

after i finish my work..i point my head around to find her... == fuck my eye sight.. im short sighted....zzz

i che bo~ T_T

then hor... i gaved up... sit there with a =< face... disapointed...

with my cheek stick on the table== i saw her walking pass through my eye sight again... say BYE BYE zzzz

== i was like... OH hi~~ stuck inside my brain and say nothing

what the hell she want really? im trying to focus ==

Owh girl, be my gf or jus get away please== beg u...

2nd Deared Tn, poh kena my sms fucked...

in bad mood== cos too much presure...then, he ask me call him and talking shit...ZZZ

then after i free i sms and shoot him==

chap him la

i not joining Stjohn anymore... =(

no time for this...

3rd, keying, chinson, guo hao come find me

She wan to service her phone...

== at the end she do nothing...

the earphone she bought also i think cant use....

wasted her time...

内疚。。。

but thank you for teman me eat...

it help alot...

i wont tell why =D

我走神秘路线嘛~

that is all about me lately..

no time 儿女诗情了。。。

i need to grow up or im death...

so, please dont judge me by what u saw...

i know what should i do and fuck off zzz

i have no friend, no gf, no money, no future now

i need to make atlease 1...

i KNOW I NEED to put those behind my shoulder long time ago...

Just because im happy with it...doesent mean i m ok with it...

i m happy with it because Im different by this way~

one time before i already gived up...

now i decide to stand up...

well...why im so stupid i know i will need to stand up some time later...

but i decide to stay dno and rest for some time....

because everything stuck with me will make me crazy? or i already crazy?

thinking about my fee to study, do i have the chance to study?

fund my brother X2 soon after back from study? or what?

i need a comfirm plan from an unconfirmed situation...

how can i continue laughing with this problem not setter?

now u all know why i always look sleepy and sad and what what ever u all can think about me...

or i should cry everyday?

i m speechless with what should i do....

想太多？不想不行。。。